Bruh yo big ole' dreams all out of focus, looking like a blur
Our impatience is only amplified when we focus too much on what we really desire and not enough on the process to obtain the desired. —You Know Me ☺
In the state of mind where Frank and I exist there is a fire to be dealt with everyday. Not a day goes by that we are not adding something to our to-do lists or our study lists. And although I have convinced myself I am indeed the most powerful woman in the universe I have began to accept the fact that I am a supernatural being in a human body. Therefore, every time I take on a new project I have to postpone a project on my list. After all, I only have two hands and one brain, and I’m not trying blow a gasket. Nevertheless, I find myself postponing projects weekly. Oh, not to mention I always feel unaccomplished when I have to move something I’m passionate about to the “later pile” in order to start on or complete an equal or greater passion. Definitely a blow to my ego.
If I did a Word of the Day it would probably be PASSION. I feel it’s only fair because I have a burning to desire to accomplish a plethora of feats before I go on the inevitable eternal exploration of time and space. That is the reason I get so frustrated with life some days. See, Frank and I do not believe in microwave fixes for anything. I mean seriously we barely ever nuke our leftovers. Yet we are two of the most impatiently patient individuals you will find. We will fuss and cuss because progress isn’t coming as fast as we’d like, but we’ll spend weeks to month studying every aspect of a decision if it needs to be precisely made. Our impatience is only amplified when we focus too much on what we really desire and not enough on the process to obtain the desired. We want, I want to do so much: from maintaining my online publishing company, starting a university, building a family, growing my loveology practice, feeding and sheltering the homeless, ushering in a revolutionary movement, painting a masterpiece, spending more time creating for my shop, writing three book series, leading a nationality program for youth, leaving a legacy—to lying on tropic beach, sipping my tea next to Frank and our seed/s. I want to do it all and more.
To achieve the above, lately I’ve been taking steps back. Time to reflect on life, lessons, mistakes and triumphs. That’s when I realized or I should say together we realized we were trying to do entirely too much individually and collectively. So the last few weeks have been about refocusing our energies. Literally picking one or two things, no more than three, to truly focus on during week. Anything I want to study becomes priority during my downtime. This has gotten me back on track. I feel more energized and excited about my next moves. Ironically, I have fallen more in love my craft and my purpose in the past weeks. I attribute the latter to my passions, but even more so achieving a new level FOCUS.