On the toilet, at work, I cried.
For those who are unaware I cry . . . because I’m sad. When I’m overwhelmed. Watching Disney movies, listening to the perfect musical score or measure, reading a tearjerker. Seeing newborns for the first time, children at play, proposals and weddings. . . When I’m mad, fulfilled, surprised, or simply in awe of nature’s workings. When I read a verse that speaks to me, your blogs, your experiences, the ups and downs, and often the comments you all leave for me . . . I cry when I’m happy. Ask Frankie, he’ll tell you— I cry, a lot. I don’t know why, but I know I’m a sap, and I know I left my desk with much haste to have a moment with self in the women’s restroom. . . yeah, and it’s all Nena’s fault, but Jahla Queen Sister, and Thank You a million times over. If I had a ten-thousand tongues I couldn’t say Thank You enough ♥.
Some time ago, Nena took to Her masterpiece YOUnfolded and penned a post in light of a chain of events I spoke about in my Featured/Sticky Post. For starters, I’m humbled beyond words, because Nena not only thought to highlight my actions, but she did so in her “Pay It Forward” series. Yup, that’s when the tears started, and preceded through the first 3 1/2 paragraphs—then I escaped my cubicle unseen, unheard to rid myself of the sniffles, before returning to finish reading.
I debated within myself how do I respond? After all, Nena published the post on January 15th, 2016 – yes, I’m super hella late. Lolz, but right on time I suppose. A lot has transpired in the last 5 days, all of which has caused a plethora of spiritual shifting for myself and Frank. I’ve found myself on my knees, veiled and praying. I’ve fell asleep mid consultation with my ancestors possibly more than I’ve ever spoken to them. More and more words, more thoughts are bleeding from my mind via my pen tip daily. And the universe has continued to respond—but now more blatantly with signs, with water? Eh, idk yet— but with numbers mostly—734—has been everywhere! along with and accompanied by an array of other significant ones. Yet, despite the constant karmic signs I’m human, young–and I’m still learning, still studying, still growing. My biggest fear, in light of my soul’s purpose, is not doing enough. . .
Thus I’m grateful beyond measure for Nena’s words of reflection in Pay It Forward | LoveTrips™—they are of the most encouraging sort. Before today I didn’t know they existed. Before today I’d convinced me, myself and I that I’m not doing all that I can do to help as many people as I can, anyway I can. Because I know I am not perfect, I know I must do more. Although Frank has constantly insures me otherwise, sometimes it takes someone observing from outside to speak life to you. I love knowing the Universe nudged me to revisit High Off Metta today, and finally see Nena’s Pingback.
Queen Nena said this “May we all emulate your heart filled with love and increase the magnetism towards metta!” (and now starts the water works again. My coworkers are going think I’m truly mad, eh.). Emulate = match or surpass. Know I’m just happy, joyful and elated someone’s eye found something I thought to be minor to be so grand. I pray my one step closer to love and universal humility is two steps for the next man or woman. Please, I beg you to surpass me. Make this journey smoother for us all. Jahla.
Thank you many times more Nena. I know your spirit has traveled afar to get to this realm. Indeed it gives me chills and so many goosebumps. ☺
I’ve heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them . . .
—Glinda the Good Witch to Elphaba the Wicked Witch (Wicked – For Good Lyrics)